The Summer of Awesome

I have officially declared this summer "The Summer Of Awesome!" 

Please imagine that declaration in an authoritative tone, punctuated by a gavel crashing down onto a desk.

Thank you for your participation in the imagination portion of this blog. (I can't guarantee that there will not be another need for one, so please have your imaginer at the ready)

Why is this the "Summer of Awesome" you may ask. 

Reason #1 I will be celebrating my second year being married to the most amazing man ever

Reason #2 This summer is the first summer that I can remember that I have felt this healthy.

 Energy... who knew?

 Feeling rested? Pish posh!

 Until now these feeling were only distant memories. How distant you ask. Really really distant thanks for asking.

Reason # 3 I would like to announce to the world that I am officially (just over) 3 months seizure free!! oh yah! I said it, no I declared it 3 months people!!! WOOOOOOO

Due in part to these reasons, and many small blessings every day. I am reminded that I have  the most amazing God ever. There were times over the last while that I have been exhausted, sad, lonely and depressed.  There he was, being my shoulder to lean on/ have seizures on. With out him I would have never come through the other side of this.

 

 With the added blessing of being married to my best friend. 

I would love to impart some wisdom, but really I don't have any. None at all really. 

Except what I read on a church sign. You all know what I am talking about. The ones with the little sayings on them. 

The sign read: When life knocks you to your knees, pray while you are down there.

So people that is it... 3 of the many reasons that this summer is the " Summer of Awesome"

Enjoy the sunshine (if you have some) 

Find the reasons why this will be your summer of awesome.

Until next time, enjoy your tomorrow

A little bit of Normal

As I sit here (when I should be sleeping) and I am thinking about who I used to be, before I was sick, before I was married, before I was a teacher.
But most specifically before I was sick. This post is in no way meant to be a pity party. I just got to thinking as most of you know happens a lot. Usually I have to talk about it for hours and explain just how I am feeling.
A friend helped me come to the realization that I am mourning the loss of who I once was. Mourning the ease of what life used to be.. before all the changes and constant alarms reminding me to take pills. Waiting... not knowing what or when a seizure is going to hit, how bad it is going to be.

But after all of that... what I really miss is my memory. I have a hard time remembering even the simple things... case in point my I pod sitting in a bowl of rice. Having forgot it out side on the deck before the torrential rain that soaked it. Finding it today, I mourned for the loss of my memory. I felt silly, I reminded my self that I am human and forgetting is normal. Then I pick up my note book that I call My Memory (catchy I know and original, I was thinking of calling it George but thought Mr. N may get jealous) and I write everything down. Reminders for my reminders.... today I had to sit my students down and explain why I forget to do things, why I have to write down reminders to finish things. Why they may have to ask me more than once to do something. They are quite the understanding little goofers. I am the one that does not seem to be able to be understanding of my self.

So here is the scoop... I am working on being more understanding of myself. Plus getting over my hate for lists... so I did what I always do RESEARCH... Turns out I am not loosing it (any more than usual) the medication that allows me to get back from my couch days to my living life days... also takes my memory with the seizures... Jerk...

But that somehow made me feel better knowing that this was beyond my control.

So here I am not really sure what this whole post is about....
If you are reading this you may be just as lost as I am :)

I guess having read this I now know that the me with the memory is for now gone... my book is now my best friend. And I am going to enjoy being the new me :) Me that is going to enjoy life... and if that means carrying my memory in my pocket will just be for now what it is. My camera will take more pictures (if that is possible).

Because I have a life that I love, a husband I love, a job that I love.
And friends that I love and care deeply for.... and just think of the fun notebooks and day planners I will be able to have (I do have an addiction to stationary) 

I am going to make a list to replace all the things I hate about being sick all of what I have lost. I am replacing that with a list of thankfuls. Starting with #1 I am thankful for the medication that has taken my memory but has given my my life back.

When I started this post all I wanted was a little bit of normal... and I found that I have not changed but my definition of normal has changed...

Until next time enjoy your tomorrow.

First Year of a new House

Being a new home owner I realize that there are things that I have taken for granted in life... Some how in my mind there were things a house always had.... like a shovel and a rake... perhaps a power drill..... You know all those handy things that my dad has just always had... (well always in my knowledge).  Now we seem to have the issue of... "honey we need to do some yard work, you know mow the grass trim the edges... water some things" Then we have to make a trip to the store to pick up some basic lawn care supplies... so an afternoon project becomes a whole day excursion.

Please don't feel that I am complaining... I have budgeted and was ready for these added expenses. But was not ready for the realization of all the wonderful things I have always taken for granted. I have rented so there were many things I just did not need. But now ohhhh my....
So I will say with pride... Mr. N and I now are the proud owners of a battery powered weed whipper... a shovel,  a rake, a lawn mower, and sadly some ant killer....( my deck was crawling with the little guys)

Boy oh boy am I ever glad that we planned for these purchases..

Now for the wonderful parts of owning our own home... it is OURS!! If something breaks we can fix it. If I want to put up pictures I don't have to ask permission....
I have a back yard I can relax in... I have a quiet home (until my dancing starts up again) that I can heal and get better in. A home...

There is nothing like it...
I have yet to have a house warming but Mr N and I are planning it soon.
It is going to be very much fun...

And you can see my shovel and my power drill if you would like :) They are quite nice :) But you have to leave them here... I did not budget for the both of us you know.

Have a wonderful day... I know I will.. I just used my extra strength hay fever meds and weed whipped the edges of my lawn... somehow it is quite fun.

Until next time-- enjoy your tomorrow

A life worth writing about

Hello, to all the people who decide to read my ramblings.
So here I am sitting on my couch ( a very good place to sit if you ask me).  Today was a great day of lazy... I slept in...ahhhh... I played some video game... did a load of laundry... decided to make peanut butter marshmallow squares. UMMMMMMM
and the best part of it all was the smile I got from Mr. N when he tasted the yummy squares.
I know it may not be the right thing to say during these modern times... but I like being a wife and making little treats that make my husband smile..... I would like to lead you to believe that I am the perfect wife... I only do things that make my husband smile.... However that is not true I am still a slug (not a tidy person) I still reheat food instead of making fresh dinner every night.... I still get grumpy.... so the long and short of it is I am still ME. :)

September.... Really???

So I looked at my blog... after my wonderful Father guy happened to mention in passing that I had not written anything in a while... I thought huh... I just wrote a little while ago... then I looked and I had written but not published. You see I just can't seem to write something that I am happy with.

Not much is new.... well lots is new... but not all is something that I would like to share with the entire world... who just happens to stumble across my blog.

As you know I have been struggling with health problems. I was hoping to be back to work in September but that did not happen. I tried and it so happened that I was not ready. I have been struggling with more issues which at this time I am not going into details about. However they have kept me from going to work and even interacting well with others.


But enough about that....

Now on to other things... my question is what makes a good post? For that matter what makes a post worth reading? The grade 2 teacher in me starts saying right away 1- Ideas (we all know you need things to talk about) 2-voice (you should be able to hear me saying the words as you read them... in short it should sound like me)

Phew... I think I have number 2.... because if you were grading my posts things other than voice and Ideas  I would fail in an epic fashion. Poor grammar...poor spelling (conventions have never been my strong point) but I have to say that I fail with Flair (for those of you who are not on my couch with me you did not see the jazz hands that accentuated that last point.

Now for Ideas those I have many of.... however I often talk my self out of writing or posting because when all is said and done I worry about boring you. My loverly readers.  But if you are brave enough to keep going I guess you know what you are getting your self into... and feel free to stop reading when ever you feel the need. Now on to the post for today.....

First for an Idea.... LOVE...
There are all kinds of love you know... I could say "I love socks" and you would really only have to talk to my husband to know this is a true statement.... I have many socks... and I always feel like I need more.... ahhhh warm and snugly toes.... now that is for me :).
No matter how much I LOVE socks it really is not the kind of love that I am talking about....
No sirree bob I am talking about the kick you in the gut make you feel like you can see the world in new and wonderful colours kind of love....

You see I found that... no not in my sock drawer... where I found it is currently mad at some cords going to the computer and now going to pack up his hockey gear...

I found that love in my husband Mr. N.... it never ceases to amaze me how much I can love one person... He sicks to me no matter what my health throws at us... he goes to endless lengths to make sure that my health issues never get the upper hand.
What makes a person love another that much????? I wish I had the answer... no wait... I have to say on second thought this Love is something that I refuse to try and understand.... That is right I said it... complete with foot stomp....

I can't understand it.... the world of tv and media tries to convince me that it does not really happen... that the world is not safe with out a plan B.... without an exit plan when things get hard...

So I say this ....... guess what world things are already hard..AND!!! . I will NEVER look like a model I think my basic bone structure weighs more than they do... I don't have to pretend to be perfect or be high needs and treat Mr. N like there is something better out there and he better know how good he has it or I am outa here.... I don't think that I have or could ever treat someone like that. That is just not "cool".

Ohhhhh WOW that was a rant... I just think that the I love you and think you are fantastic in your sweat pants.... the I love coming home cause my best friend lives there.... that is the kind of love that I think people should strive for.... look for.... WORK for....


I have to say it was a lot of fun to rant....

Well worth reading or not :) thanks for sticking with me... Thank you for your prayers and support. Let me tell you without your prayers... God's love is really the best, sustains me when my legs give out. Thank goodness that there is a God who loves me... a Mr. N that loves me and friends that care about me. :)

Until next time.... Enjoy your tomorrow

Looking.... (origially written in October)

So here I was thinking what am I going to write about.... hummmmm... it really was a head scratcher... and it happened to be a good thing due to the fact that I had an itch about the same time I was thinking.
 ahhhhhh now the itch is vanquished I am still at a loss for something witty and stunningly intelligent to say. Then I thought "hey noodle head this is your blog people are reading, they are not looking for intelligent" and if they are they need to know that is not what they are going find by a long LONG shot.

Phew... now that, that is over
Funny things have been happening to me over the last couple of days. People think I am hilarious.... which is crazy... and if you know me you know that if people laugh well I just keep going. It seems that people all over the place have been needing to laugh... the lady who sold me pants... the lady who sold me ice cream.... the person I had to call at telus to complain.... the random phone marketer that needed someone just to ask how he was doing.

Good thing I was there.... Phew... I am kind of a super hero... Not sure what my super hero hero name should be... Captain Laughter?? Please feel free to weigh in on the topic if you wish.

Now if you need to laugh... I may let you down you see I am not that funny when I try... usually comes off creepy.. but catch me in a moment where you would think I should be normal and experience tells me that you may just hear something to laugh about.

Until next time.... enjoy your tomorrow....

Country in the City...

So growing up in the country we had cats... good mousers, this was essential because the little rodents are planning to take over the world... why else would you need to have that many babies all at once....

Sorry apparently I have some unresolved issues with mice....

Back to my story I grew up with two cats... Patches and Ying they were the kind of cats that got to go outside and come back in when they wanted... Maybe I was naive but I did not think you could have indoor/outdoor cats in the city....


However in my neighbour hood at least this is just not the case... we have many.... I have nick named some of them

1. Duck and Cover Kitty.... this cat comes outside all the time he or she darts quickly from one hiding spot to antoher... always keeping an eye out for its friend

2. Sneak attack kitty... this cat hides above Duck and Cover's favorite spots and pounce... smack...run... really it is always fun to watch this cat in action.... one of the best times was when Sneak Attack was hiding behind the tire of a car waiting for Duck and Cover to come by... and after a while he/she did... then it was all hisss... smack... run....

3. Captain Tubby... This cat never hurries... rarely hides... and is huge... Sometimes it looks like his tummy is going to drag on the ground... and when he walks by.... it is with such attitude... and of course since he is a large tummy cat... he has those swaying roles that swoosh back and forth if on the rare occasion Captain Tubby ever feels like hurrying...

4. Black Panther... Now this cat is a street wise fellow/gang member... he slinks in the shadows and glares down the opponents... I myself get out of the way when the Panther is in town....

5. Lawn Ornament... this cat likes to strech out and bask in every sun beam... however if he feels detected by anything.... he sits stock still... with the whole "nothing to see here... keep it moving... move along..." look.

6. Little Friend... This cat was new yesterday (well new to me) this one came right up to me and looked starved for attention and a little skinny... so my heart melted... well I sat and said hi... (which turns out to be the wrong move for Little Friend then spent most of the night laying on my doorstep...


So as you can see my realization is that there are many outdoor/indoor cats in the city... Now I realize this is not a wonderful deep realization.... but really I rarely have those... so this is as good as it gets for now....



Till next time.... enjoy your tomorrow